Number 5

GhazalIraqi style
English

Number 5

Whoever holds his own heart in his hands keeps all his wishes close beside him. He has no one to ease his sorrow, and the strange thing is: he himself is the comforter of his own grieving friend. How can I complain about my beloved, when all my pain comes from my own wounded heart? Whoever wants a friend only for his own sake is no lover; he loves only himself. The true lover in this world is the one whose whole existence lives and dies for the beloved. Though my clothes are soaked with tears, the fire in my chest still burns as before. I weep so much from my eyes that I feel ashamed before my own tear-filled eyes. You take my life, so take it, what can I do? By God, you too are counted among what is mine. In all your days there is not a single moment when you are not busy with your own affairs. I was apologizing to my sorrow, for my heart feels ashamed of the headache I bring you. You said: careful, do not speak this way, for serving you is my own duty.
Explanation: In couplet 10, 'headache' renders sodaa, meaning the trouble or bother the poet feels he causes the beloved. The final line reverses the roles, with the beloved calling service to the lover a personal duty.

Original · Persian

شمارهٔ ۵

هر که را دل به اختیار خودست آرزوهاش در کنار خودست
غمگساری ندارد و عجب آنک هم‌غمِ یارِ غمگسار خودست
گله از دوست چون کنم که مرا همه رنج از دل فکار خودست؟
دوست را هر که بهر خود خواهد او نه عاشق که دوستار خودست
عاشق آنست در جهان کو را بود و نابود بهر یار خودست
ز آب چشم ار چه دامنم تر شد آتش سینه بر قرار خودست
بس که از دیده اشک می‌بارم شرمم از چشم اشکبار خودست
جان من می بری، ببر، چه کنم؟ بخدا کت هم از شمار خودست
نیست در روزگار تو یک دم که نه مشغول روزگار خودست
عذر می‌خواستم ز غم که دلم از صداع تو شرمسار خودست
گفت زنهار این حدیث مگوی که مرا خدمت تو کار خودست